Cut'n me deep with every i love u

cut'n me deep with every i love u

every bitter fake i love you once said
will sound like all of the ones that
u may have ment at one time..

you cut me deeper and deeper and deeper ..
ever time you hug me..

knowing that possibly
she sits on my throne
when im not there

ive given
my soul time to heal from the heart break
i thought was never possible.
i thought if i loved ..
it would be with you

but at least there will be memories..
shes taunted me once before by questioning who i am
and has made me step back from the light that shined on me
i am fierce with my words of vindicition.

i have scarred her in more ways than one

i have swept away those sad moments because
looking back they have not made me who i am
but they have broken me into these pieces that
are laying here on the floor. .. ..

i’m living in a love that only exist in my mind...
one that you have been freed from years ago...

Motherless Daughter 

Motherless daughters will eventually learn how to walk tall.
So much tension cant be held in one humans body..
My body will break free from this pain when I am ready..
I must live with death and remorse..
Trying to find hope in this tornado of pain…
My Sorrow is so deep that there are no words invented to describe it..
I wake up giving a million thank yous to God to only end it off being pissed
Being pissed that he has made me feel unworthy of having my mother beside me.
Being pissed that I have not a single fond memory of her.
Yet I take her in me..
I breath her.. Her blood runs thru my veins...
I yearn to never be lonely..
No Poetry... Nor song will ever heal these wounds that are so deeply cut in me
Seems like there is never any end..
I cannot feel..
I cannot go back in time...
I cannot save someone who couldn’t have been saved.
I cant not shake it or break it..
it clings on me..
It’s tangled in my spirit.
This loss has found rhythm In my step..
I have a life time of mending a head..
I’m left to rediscover a love that is impossible.. Trying to find my soul in her past steps..
I am a motherless daughter.. still learning to crawl so that one day I can walk tall…

Rebel from it all

 

Come free my mind.
Is it possible.

I know its possible...
how about then I free your mind

Break these chains..

Its possible...
Stop restraining me with ur thought of...Nothing is possible.
Ur negative and naive ...
Please help me forget him
constantly holding me back..
U cause a pain...

I'm undone and not knowing the real meaning of a relationship .

. Because of some %#&@$! u call ownership .....

I fight myself....

immature.. U are..

U inspire me
... Make my desire pure.. ..

Ur taking my identity ... How do i talk to u...

Touch my lips with ur hands..

I dont understand ur embrace...

What a disgrace...

No excuse... I need 2rebel...
I need a peice of mind.

That old me is left behind....

Burried 6feet under.

Cold and bare.

Stripped and vulnerable .......
please come free my mind....

My mind.... Can u feel me.. Free me.. ... ....

Becuz its possible ..